MyHotComments being ignored and lonely for the past 2 weeks.. hope that everything will have a big change in the coming nights... i needed u so much... i need in understanding my needs of people listening to my sad and happy stuffs... i tried giving u all i can.. being a faithful and responsible wife u wish to have.. being a dutiful mother and wife u wan to have... so many changes in me just to give u a blissful marriage and a happy family... lesser quarrel to have a better sleep brighter day... smses u send me today.. i din noe how to react.. being happy cause u will really wanna change and learn to spend more time with me and Bernice or just a sms to tell mi stop telling u abt these things?? i no longer dare to tell people " my hubby do love me" cause i no longer sense the love u have for me... u used to show me that u love me.. u gave me assurance that u do love me.. but why am i being ignore now?? even after i have tried to be my best? i am upset... i lost all my confidence.. i began to feel that i am beginning to lose everything in my everyday life...
i dun wan to lose my everything to a new girl as i have already did all i can to hold u in my heart or even place myself as an important part of ur life.. if u think that it has never been enough i hope u will really come clean to me and tell me frankly..
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why does it seems that my heart is always breaking and cracking.. why is it tt everyone around me is hurting me in someways?? do i really deserve such treatment?? cried so hardly last night.. i dunno wad happen to me or even why am i crying... hubby was sleeping so soundly and i am weeping so hard in the toilet by myself... i wanna know why... WHY AM I CRYING??? call my lil' brother Sidney and cried made him got so worried.. my mom called me.. told me no matter wad be strong.. she sid " there will be many small stones in ur path.. just kick dem away when they are in ur way" (there are many problems in ur life just brush dem aside and solve it no big deal) but when the stone are bigger.. u nid de strength of ur family members.. as in think of dem.. you willl be strong and move de stone away...
i heard thing that simply shattered my heart yesterday... told mummy and hubby abt it.. maybe i was crying over that word?? or just feeling upsset over nothing.. i am not very sure myself.. i really dunno wad has become of me... i dunno myself anymore.. i am not myself anymore... who am i???
you are my biggest ban jiao shi.. i simply hate hate hate you.. biggest fugger tt ever appeared in my life..