♥ You Are My One & Only

if u think it is not a truthful one den it's not
if u think that everything that i had done for you in the past is a show den so be it.
if u think u really know me very well, i guess i found out it's not true.

i did being true to u in the past but as time pass i cant do it anymore. u are living in ur self-centered world. u expect ppl to help u alot. but as when we really needed help u always fail to be there. i stand out giving u a helping hand. Once, u told me. i understand ur past. u said that u will understand more than wad my hubby will. I CAN NEVER TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE!! it's nt true. i tried to avoid making u feel tired, hurt or even alone. but what have u ever done for me? i take things for example, i rather carry the heavier objects instead of u making u carry them. i can even carry ur bag for u when the stroller cant take anymore weight. i can let u do ANYTHING to my property w/o any complains but what did i get in return?? u walking so carefreely w/o even considering whether i can handle that heavy stroller of mine with YOUR bags on it?? whatever advice or things i did were never a harm to u. i will always be the first to step out to help u in the past. but i will never do it again.

things u upset me.
u have a very selfish mindset.
-whenever u wanna go out. u dun even ask where i wanna go. u just tell mi. "sande pei me go here pei me go there"
-i dunno whether u were doing it out of purpose or u really dun mean it. bernice was crying so loudly and u can play the computor like nobody business when i was doing the laundry or even cooking.
-i will not deny that u did help mi do some hsework. but wad make me so piss of when u did?? because u hang 3 clothes out of the whole washing machine and i haf to be happy that u actually helped me? or should i say thanks for helping me by taking out a shirt and short saying that u wanna go shower and let me fold the rest of the clothes on the sofa?( u helped me by letting me fold 2pc lesser)
-when i am cooking, bernice was sitting in the walker being very quiet and nice. yet u carried her for less than 5 mins and u put her down and make her cry so loudly and u just walk away???
-ppl come telling me "hey, do u know raine say u this or that??" and i keep quiet.

why am i doing all this?? why must i keep quiet over all this for the past few months??
yes partly because u are bear bear's gerl, on the other hand it's because u are staying just beside me. i dun wanna pick up a quarrel and see each other's faces in the afternoon and argue cause there is only the 2 of us at home. i tot i will be able to tolerate till the day i move out & forget everything that had actually happen to us in the past. i think i was wrong. even u put water in a bottle continously it somehow will still overflow.

i will not as u to beg me or what so ever. cause i dun see a need in doing so. i played my part as beiing a good friend to u, i only see some parts of cause u share ur problems with me. as a very helpful friend u are still abit far from there.

i once trasure u, cherish u, love u or even wanna be the best fren that ppl will envy.
but... too many things that happen were feelings that others cant feel, others can't see.